Defining Anger
Anger is the moment you realize nothing you wanted truly mattered. When your freedom to chose is taken from you and what is left to you is Anger.
It stalks you like a big cat stalks its prey. Only this time, there is not hunted and hunter. It is all with in you. Your mind rails at things it feels it could have and should have had a say in. But in the scheme of things, you are a peon in their world. Enough innuendos and people will seek them out to hear the truth.... their version of it.
The whispers and slights that say you are less then what you are. It shouldn't matter but it does. Get angry! Let it rise in you and never cool till you have sated yourself in their disemboweled words.
Feel your anger but do not show it... the world doesn't care if you hurt. No one does. Anger is a useless emotion.... isn't that what your told?
Its not.
It sets your blood to boiling! Reminds you that if only to yourself, you matter. Let it cook within you, bring your soul to ruination. What does it matter now? No say, no word, no life worth living. No choice.........
Still yourself and be a good little boy.
What does it matter?
Listen to others and not to yourself.
What does it matter?
They know whats best, you don't.
What does it matter?
What does it matter..........
Well to you it does matter.
It matters allot and now nothing can be done. You will have to be happy to sit back and watch what you are a part of but not allowed to play in. You will have to be angry in silence, letting it eat at what little humanity you have left.
Turn your back, walk away, try not to care........
Its not your problem.
Its not your life.
Its not for you to speak against.
Doesn't matter.... right?
Well fuck the world and what they think is best for you. Get mad, Get angry.... but don't get even... that is unproductive and lets down all those who want you to live your life as they see fit.
But anger..... Anger changes the soul when it can't be vented.......
So be angry. If you must.
I know I am.
RavenWolf
~2001~
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